My life

time to blog everything out
i usually don't blog about every single detail i feel
i only blog when i'm feeling down

yes i have friends to go too
yes i have my boyfriend
but will they understand?

i wished i had someone, whose facing the same problem
so that we both can talk about it freely
without having to explain over and over again

2010 hit me hard, a stepping stone to adulthood

college fees has been a burden to my mom

my brother got taken advantage of a friend, totally pissed me off
seeing him teared after so many years, hurt me
truthfully i still side my brother , no matter what fucked shyt that SOB bring's up
u lose nothing,no wait u lost a goodfriend
u took full advantage of someone who thought u were a "goodfriend"
two thumbs up for you, you threw your friendship down the drain. goodjob !

; if you want to bitch about me, i rather you bitch behind my back
because your face disgust me. your voice is like a talking cock
which make's me hate you more.

i can't socialize much with my collegemates
i never had problem making friends

my boyfriend would never fully understand me

my moodswings are crazy, & i'm so fustrated about it
i don't want to be not in talking terms with him
but i just can't help feeling so moody and down

& he would never understand
of course he wouldn't , he did nothing wrong
i just threw my fucked up mood at him
i can't control. i'm so fustrated

reality took over childhood, it hit me hard
of course i'm not gonna blaber all my problems here
& assuming other's are problem free, of course not
everyone has their rough times.

i'm always worrying about my future,
will i succeed or fail ?
can i make my parents proud ?

i got 3 distinctions & 1 pass for fucking economics
most would say its good. still i'm not that satisfied with it
yes , i shouldn't ask too much & no i'm not competing with my mates
i just want to do the best to make my parents proud, esp my mom
that's all. mom's facing financial difficulties
i feel that only with good grades i can make her happy & proud

I want to grow up & give her everything a woman should deserve
but i always tend todoubt myself.so many negative thoughts

nuff said. i have more to say
but there are no words that can fully describe my emotions

i think it's time to change my blog layout. it's so boring already !